I remember a time where there was nothing else in my dreams but visions of a bright future, happiness, love, devotion, respect, and family, all of which to be shared with the one of whom when joined with me created a true oneness unrivaled in the entire history of all life. Once more, as it has too many times in the in the past, the end has come.
A difficult painful time for me once more, but one I have become accustomed to. I have found that the inner self of me holds much love and care, including an overwhelming absolute need to hold respect for my partner as an equal and true individual. No ego, no control, just dedication, respect and love, so when those feelings are not returned I admit to being completely surprised and shattered. For me it leaves a sense of bewilderment over how two so close, so joined, can be so fundamentally different at their cores. I am left with only the soul burning lasting pain of confusion, loss and despair, and the question I can find no answer to,
“How can this be once more?”