Westward Ho

The great vision filled them with need,
Extraordinary journey laying ever ahead.
Necessity in knowing unknown wonders.
So so many perish along the hard path,
Still they’re driven by westward vision,
Death but one of the heavy challenges.
Hot dry plains, mountain tu airless sky,
Snow wagon deep as do vision yet call,
Until there, yon valley spreading wide,
Out new homes an Earth born paradise,
Demands met, vision fulfilled, we rest,
For now our new great futures to build…

easy…

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Left Behind

Agonizing pain,
This vast emptiness,
Forlorn host now lost,
How do I now to go on,
How do I dare to continue,
Only yesterday future bright,
The whole of tomorrows entice,
Yet today vision now dark and lost,
Where have you journeyed to alone,
Why for am I left here in pensive pain,
Reaching out I find you not,
Ever searching still you’re lost,
Calling and hearing only the silence,
Pleading but no answer to spring forth,
How now do I continue without my best part,
They say to make peace,
Tell me to let memories dim,
Assure me this pain too shall pass,
But I know well their misunderstanding,
They cannot will-not ever know the truth,
Me empty shell left here while she’s gone home,
Why to continue onward all alone?

Easy…

Beg

Drifting Memories

Art and Words to settle my mind

An End, or a New Beginning

Waiting
The end so near, but it does not come
Anticipation, a longing to at last go home
This unbearable agony, need left far behind
Stepping forward on the next step of my journey
Excitement for the newest of futures to come

And yet, here I sit…

Waiting
The end so near, but it does not come
Anticipation, a longing to at last go home
This unbearable agony, needs left far behind
Stepping forward on the next step of my journey
Excitement for the newest of futures to come

And yet, here I set…
Is there reason, must be, need be
Something yet to do, task incomplete, work unfinished
More unknown, laid out in need of my skills
A helping to be offered, another someone in need
I need to know, desperately, for weary I be

I look within for answers, finding not
Reaching to the Creator, only silence returned
I ask help, yet no hand is thrust forward
Feeling lost, abused, abandoned, alone again
Would I beg, plead, cry out in my shame
Alas, I fear but another voice, lost to the night

So I sit here, waiting
All agony, pain, and despair
Hope but a memory, Alone…

-easy

These Words
These Words

Taken

Memories flood, heart bleeds,
So much loss, destiny at an end,
She was such beauty, soul shining,
Now gone still, my very life with her,
This waste of glory, caste away rubbish,
How do I hope to recover, my failure too great,
My perfection of partner, my very core of being,
They’ve taken her away, I left empty. All now alone,
I so need her, want her, make our love as once was,
But she’s gone…

-easy…

DeathMaria

Painful Reminders

Two in-twined with love,
Body, mind, and souls one,
Their light shining in dark city,
Togetherness spreading beauty,
Can there be more a more on high,
And I, tears flowing, sit still in solidarity,
Loneliness being my existence, my world,
To see them living my dreams, highest need,
Still alone I am, lost within with a core of despair,

-easy…

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Return

I held her as a life fulfilled,
I knew her as the all I ever needed,
I want her so, I’m lost with her absence,
I reach for her, finding only empty spaces,
I called for her hearing only echoing silence,
I dream of her finding only lost lonely memories,
Come back my love, return for my loving arms to hold,
Come embrace me once again, share this my unending love,
Come refill this emptiness That burns in my heart of hearts,
Come change this shadowed life back to the light of the joyous,
Return to me, break free of your deadly end, return my very world,

-easy

ReachingHands

Return to Happiness

Darkness comes again, just an old close friend,
Quietly came whispers, spirit in the shadows,
Listen my son, I would speak with you again,
At the voice, the vision blossomed to bloom,
Seeds well planted, while I thought I slept,
The vision still remains, deep in my head,
Disturbs my calm, a din to silence,
Serenity all washed away,

Within my innermost core, left to walk all alone,
Narrow paths of dirt and stone, discrepant ills,
Huddled beneath flicking lamp, cold, empty,
Old ragged collar turned up to the damp,
My eyes were clinched by a light,
Splitting the night, now day,
Fear now fills my core,

In the naked glare, a multitude encircles me fully,
So many people, but being so strange somehow,
Talking without voice, hearing not to listen,
The write songs, songs voices never share,
None to dare disturb the silent cacophony,
All confusion, a disordered emptiness,
Beyond any help, never to find home,

Foolish said I, lost in their frenzied search of calm,
Alone in the crowd, silence like a cancer grows.
To notice not, each an agonized soul solitary,
Imploring hear my words, allow teaching,
Take my arms, hear lessons of learning,
All my words, silent raindrops fall,
Echoes, an empty well of silence,

People bow and beg, praying to a mass of false Gods,
Honouring possessions, merchants dancing gleeful,
Neon signs, flashing out their dire warnings,
Compelled content, unity of unthinking,
Prophets writing, lost on subway walls,
And tenement halls
All silent death,

We can together, break free, defeating this stagnant greed driven nightmare into which we’ve been thrust? I believe, no, more so I know with the all me, we can, Together we can stand in a joint triumph over our mind bending oppression. Rediscover our truest route to happiness, all again belonging to all of humanity, the entirety of existence, knowing our part, living our part, knowing and really caring for our extended families around us. Regaining our ability to actually listen and talk to every person we are blessed to meet, without ‘judgement,’ even to the point of knowing ‘this will be my newest friend.’

I know many will call me delusional or something, many have, and much worse (even a bunch you may not have thought of yet,) but it is much the same as the way I’ve existed all along this path, not all I’ll quickly admit (there’s a lot of ‘DARK’ stuff back there too,) but mostly. I’ll warn I guess, that if you take it upon yourself to move toward this you can expect to be used and abused, and boy have I ever, but you will always pick yourself back up, and if you resist the programmed response of blaming your ‘own foolishness’ for it, and actually set back on your course in happiness even maintaining your positive outlook. A lot of really great things happen when you over the programmed ‘need’ for stuff and status. When is the last time you really dedicated a part of your day to talk to a neighbour? Do you even know them? Do you avoid them because of someone else’s opinion of them? We’ve been well programmed to respond that way. Reach out a bit, I promise you’ll be pleasantly surprised much less than finding disappointment. Try it a while. No, that last is wrong, don’t ‘try,’ do, Discover there are no strangers, just good people you haven’t met yet…

Easy…

HappinessLost

Gone

This most heart stopping daze, can’t be real,
Desperately looking for her, this emptiness,
Nothing left but pain, world morpheme loss,

I reach out to hold, finding only destitute air,
How can this be truth, I must have you close,
Where are you love, without you I am so lost,

I sit with tears flowing, empty void in my bed,
I pray this nightmare be over, silence returned,
Screaming out for you, only echoing emptiness,

easy…

The never-ending questions. “Why now,’ “What did I do wrong that caused this,” “How can I ever go on alone,” “My faith is ended, how could I ever again give thanks,” “What could I have done to change this,” The doubts never seem to end. But over time, with acceptance and understanding peace will return. The pain and suffering never really end, yet we will learn to live a new life, even happiness will return with time. Know that many of us suffer just as you are. The painting I called “Pain & Loss” done right after I lost a dear friend.

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