Left Behind

Agonizing pain,
This vast emptiness,
Forlorn host now lost,
How do I now to go on,
How do I dare to continue,
Only yesterday future bright,
The whole of tomorrows entice,
Yet today vision now dark and lost,
Where have you journeyed to alone,
Why for am I left here in pensive pain,
Reaching out I find you not,
Ever searching still you’re lost,
Calling and hearing only the silence,
Pleading but no answer to spring forth,
How now do I continue without my best part,
They say to make peace,
Tell me to let memories dim,
Assure me this pain too shall pass,
But I know well their misunderstanding,
They cannot will-not ever know the truth,
Me empty shell left here while she’s gone home,
Why to continue onward all alone?

Easy…

Beg

Drifting Memories

Art and Words to settle my mind

Tis Only You

I see your dreams flooding out from your eyes,
Your heartbreaks from memories better left to die,
The very substance of you yearning to at last be fee,
Your soul still holding strong to those hopes yet to come,
And in my seeing you, knowing you, my life at last fulfilled
For tis you my friend, my heart, my soul, you who makes me be,

-easy

Lovely

Once Complete, Now Lost

For I was more with you,
Twined tight with shared souls,
What created way to be than two as one,
Alas your soul need to wonder, and I am left alone,
More alone than alone, for my soul is torn and ravaged,

-easy

(a different viewpoint below painting)

Wisful3

Renewal

The spring rain refreshing has passed,
Whispers of life blooming around again,
I am content, renewed, a fullest of being,
This comfort unbound, completely soul,
I am existence, full connection, belonging,
Living most flowing loving contented life,
This rapturous fulfilled wondrous journey,
This life a completion of the most joyous…

-easy

My Dusty Path

All an arrogant desert wherever I look,
The start focuses only on the far distances,
I can find no regret in having reached failure,
Still silent tears flow in not having reached you,
So still I walk the burning sands alone…

-easy & friends…

Jamie

With love,
My dear friend,
Listen to me as I beg,
Simple words perhaps, but truth,
You are the strongest most loving soul I know,
So much you give, so much yet for you to be sharing,
Hold on tight to all of the loving blessings filling your life,
This tiniest of moment, the miracle within that tiny life holding you,
Know in you heart that your coming future will be wondrously sublime,
I know the deep emptiness within you from his sudden tragic absence,
He is crying to be from with you, but he’s crying more for your pain,
He needs to see your suffering end, needs your happiness returned,
As does that most special little soul resting close at your side,
Gather yourself up, embracing the beauty of being again,
Re-embrace the charms abundant encompassing you,
Feel his loving arms still holding you so close,
The passion never lost, for he travels as yet,
There are no ends, only changes of being,
Put trust in yourself, trust in him,
You are one in spirit’s bond,
Embrace the love of life,
Allow yourself to heal,
Allow yourself to be,
Once again whole,
Be you, Be…

easy…
JamieSnuggle

The Pain Of My Dream

The very epitome of beauty, soul shines bright with love,
A dream throughout my life, my vision of what could be,

I’ve held her, known her, cherished her, wanted her close,
Hitherto never to meet, my dream not destined to be true,

Oh how I’ve searched, looked deeply into all life’s chance,
A necessity to find her, my soul reaches out, desiring her,

So, so many do I love, so, so many complete my journey,
Once I love it is everlasting, enveloping memories in joy,

Unfulfilled need for partnership, an equal sharing of paths,
Interdependence, an unselfishness in the union of passions,

Blending of two lonely individuals, identity of united state,
Please enlighten me, tell me why does my partner yet hide,

Has she spent a lifetime searching for me, as I seek her,

easy… 12/11/14

Death Alone

Heart Broken

I reach out my hands desperate to touch love,
Finding only emptiness where you should be,
In a panic I jump up to search where you are,
Ever so slowly my memory begins to clear,

With remembrance returns my tormented soul,
Realization that you are truly gone, lost to me,
Death had scythed his cruel hands into my life,
I now live in a nightmare, tears ever unending,

Over and over I ask myself how can I go on,
So much angriness that you have been seized,
I’ve lost my faith, no room for an uncaring God,
I know I need you back, I need you holding me,

And thusly this has been my life too long a time,
Tell me what to do to put meaning to my sadness,
I beg give me a sign to help me one more instance,
Demonstrate erstwhile that our love still thrives,

A small voice asks me if we may talk for a while,
They offer a cognition creating a depth of thought,
A realization of simple truths concealed by my grief,
Clarity that presents a reason to find purpose, hope,

They remind me that you are not really lost to me,
Unseen you are still right here, still embracing me,
Your love is not gone but grown with wonder, joy,
Each of my days are now with your arms enfolding,

Your greatest want is to see me blissful, glad ere more,
To firmly grasp my life again, to treasure each second,
For the gifts you brought me, I owe you this and more,
The wonders with which you fill me, make me alive,

And they share with me even more truthful a vision,
For this is not an end, for at some little time reunion,
And reunited our love shall light the all of existence,
A newest star lighting the heavens, lasts for all time,

And another reminder, for sadly perhaps, we do not ‘get over’ our grief at losing loved ones. But we do learn to live a new life, with our grief. We can and should be happy, going on forward once more while being honest and true to our caring and loving natures. Not a betrayal but more in honoring those having gone on before us, Can we do any less for the love they share with us?

Namaste and blessings,

easy… 11/25/2014

Hear the Silent Steps

He comes, with soft gentle steps, slipping through the shadows,
Each and every cherished second, every moment, and every day,
Throughout the nights he comes to guard over you, his one love,
Listen to the silent whispers drifting on the winds blowing gentle,

Many a song he sung for you, all for the love of his giving soul,
Yet none of the notes rang clear enough to ring out his true care,
You find him wafting and dancing between the trees in sunny April,
Spreading fragrant new flowers to brighten and bless his love’s path,
In the rainy gloom of July nights stopping the thunder to bring dawn,
Riding on chariots of wandering clouds he comes, comes ever more,
But he’s gone you say, I’m alone, only pain presses upon my heart,
And now you know he is never far, never out of reach, you are not alone,

And know too, it is for a glimpse of your golden smile that gives him joy,

easy…