Oh to be happy
I need to be happy
My life seems to be a waste
Only damaged goods all say
Ruined by long years of addiction
Once young, happy, with great future ahead
Now all but lost, ruined, only a dregs of this world
Where gone all my hopes, my dreams, my love, my care
Where gone now that child of wonder staring at moon lit sky
I sit here alone, my own pity, my own shame and tears
No hold on life, family driven off, no true friends
What’s this, a whisper, a tiny glimmer of new
A feeling forgotten, cast off, ignored
Dim light doth shine around me
Changes, a growth, strength
I reach out to embrace
The heart of me
A warmth
Calm
I suddenly somehow know, still time to turn around, a hope
From nowhere, strength, courage, drive, all flood in
I meet a wonder, a smile, dry, clean, offers help
And I reach out, desperate for anything
This new friend, understands, knows
No judgement or censor, only care
Has been here themselves
But they’ve won
Are winning
Life again
A start
How can I
Do I dare but try
Fear the risk, the pain
I still dwell on failures past
I fear not to be worthy, too far gone
But new friend, hand on shoulder, positive
I begin to believe, to dream, to know
Hard work together, but forward
A struggle yes, but we continue
I slide back, but begin anew
Must win, not give up
And I know will
I become
Grow
Am
I grow weary
Confidence is fading
But my friend reaches out
Strength and courage is the lend
The battle continues, a war for my life
Together we fight it, one small step at a time
Day by day I get better, a community do I meet
New friends by the hundreds, much help, much caring
And I’m winning, I am, each day be a lot the better
Yet never to lose the knowing, I must battle still
Each day more growth, my family talks again
My new life a wonder, this my newest world
A brightness surrounds me, all hope anew
I walk in the glow, with a soul
Discover I can help now
Others in the seeking
I reach out, care
Gently lead
Guide
Is this reason
I question this all
Is this my new meaning
A driving force now fills me
Without want, or need I find must
A calling, this great thing, this I must do
And I hold to the bright day, allow it to shine
They reach out and I answer, giving the all of myself
And I suddenly realize, I’m that stranger that helps
I share love, understanding, guidance and care
We together begin, their new voyage to life
I join in their battle, together we fight
And grow they do now, small steps
Each day a bit better, new hope
I can rejoice in this sharing
Their climb from the dark
Falter as they may
Help them I do
For my life
I always
Will..
Like a blinding flash, I suddenly realize that by being able to freely give, without expecting anything ever in return, I have become what I was always intended to be. A happy, loving, caring human being, in touch with my inner self and filled to the bursting with a loving soul, moving through this journey, able to make this world around me all the better. With each giving, I grow more and more. And the more I grow the more I can give. You too have this within you, just as you too can make a difference in your world, and in yourself. I see your future, and it is great!
Easy